Like you, I've struggled to navigate trying to get hired in a UX role. A UX portfolio has been crucial to getting hired at NYC startups, clients for my consulting business, and even offers from Google (turned those down though).
I want you to get the UX career you dream of. But here's the thing, sometimes you over-think it. Sometimes you are your own worst client.
You don't need more articles. You don't need more inspiration. What you need is a plan to take action.